14 September 2012, Friday ( my problem )

My life is too different with you guys. Yet i just realize how selfish i am. Silly me for being selfish. I am the first child in this family and i can't do anything. My father is just a labor and mum? so how can i easily spend money knowing they are in a huge problem. maybe it is not very huge right now but someday it will be. Allah, please help me. I want to get job earlier so that i can help them. Forget about what i said about continuing my study. In my mind right now, just get a job and help them. It is not like i am sacrificing my hope. When there is another change to continuing my study i will accept it for sure. Sorry mum and dad for being too stubborn before this.